No Time to Blog

Adjusting to a busy work life has been difficult. I'm not surprised by that, but I'm perhaps a bit surprised how difficult it has been. While I've been working on Rails since May 2006, I was probably only working 20-25 hours a week on average. Contrast that with working about 50 hours a week minimum now, plus commuting time, and you might have an idea why the adjustment has been hard.

I find myself having difficulty getting errands done that I need to get done. I've made it to the grocery store twice since I started with Aha. It isn't that I don't have enough time to do these errands, it is just that I seem unwilling to do with less down time, so the errands are what gets cut. I need to figure out how to manage my time a bit better.

So here I am writing on my blog, when I could be going to the grocery store, or hanging out with friends. I wanted to write something on Wednesday, which would have been Mom's 64th birthday. Dad was down visiting. We listened for the announcements on WAMU (they didn't play the last one, so sorry to all of you who listened for it and didn't hear it). We went to Zengo for dinner (which was extremely good, and the service was outstanding). In some ways it was a very good day. I got to spend some quality time with Dad and Reed. For the most part we had a good time. In other ways it was upsetting. We kept telling people it was Dad's birthday, and I kept wanting to say, "No, Dad's birthday was on Monday, today is Mom's birthday"; but I didn't, because I didn't want to spoil the evening and bring everybody down. I kept drifting out of the conversation, and I'd stare at the empty chair, and wish I believed that the ghost of Mom was sitting in the chair celebrating with us. Anyway, that is what I wanted to write on Wednesday...

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I think all the first anniversaries and holidays after someone is gone are hard. Your mom is with you all the time - no amount of time that passes will ever change that. mindy, October 22, 2007 12:52