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Introspection After Five Weeks

I thought I'd take a moment to reflect on some things I've noticed, thought about, or whatever, since I started this trip. First of all, I don't know how bloggers do this (yes Joe, I'm talking about you). How do you write daily about what is going on? I pretty much feel like 90% of what I'm writing is boring and trite. It is occasionally getting in the way of me experiencing more while I'm on the trip, as I rarely have time to work on the photos or to write. For example, instead of exploring more of San Francisco for the past two hours, I've been sitting in the same cafe typing and uploading. I'd give it up entirely, but despite my paranoid thoughts that this is all garbage, I've gotten plenty of positive feedback from many of you. Thanks to you all for making me feel like I'm not wasting my time!

I sit here writing in a coffee shop called Mission Creek on Valencia Street in San Francisco. My friend Pat suggested Ritual a block up the street, and he is right, it is much cooler than this place, but it was packed and there was nowhere to sit. But the people watching is still pretty good here. People are much friendlier, easy to start a conversation with, and just laid back in general. San Francisco isn't the only place that has made me question why I still live in DC area? I mean, I like DC, and most of my friends are there. But I've lived there over 11 years now, and I've got to wonder if a change isn't in the cards. Who knows. It could just be a case of the grass being greener on the other side (in this case of California, that is all metaphorical and not literal at all, considering the brownness of the grass).

Anyway, since I left, I've travelled just under 5000 miles. I visited a few states I'd never visited before (Alabama, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Texas, & New Mexico). I think the only remaining states I've never been to are Alaska, Hawaii, Oregon, Washington, Kansas, Nebraska, North Dakota, and Rhode Island. I'll be hitting Oregon and Washington over the next week.

I also think this trip would be much more fun with someone else... or would it? On the one hand, I have pretty much complete control on where I go and what I do, which would not be the case with a companion. As with anything, there are pros and cons. This changes tomorrow anyway, as I'll be picking up my parents in Sacramento.

I am getting a bit tired of living life out of a suitcase and on the road. Makes me wonder why I think RV'ing across the country would be a cool thing. I also somehow (as irrational as it sounds) simultaneously think I'm spending too much time and not enough time on this trip. I'm toying with the idea of flying home for a break from the trip, then flying back to finish it. I doubt I'll do that, but it could happen.

Oh, and while I would NOT say that the purpose of this trip was to "find myself", if it were, it would be a complete failure. I don't really believe in traveling as a means to "find oneself", and this trip only solidifies that belief, as I only have more questions about myself than I had before.

Hopefully this doesn't sound too negative. I really am having a blast. I've gotten to know many people much better who I thought I knew pretty well already. I've packed more life experiences into the past 5½ weeks than I probably did in the prior 5½ months. And while many of my visits seem short, I feel like many of them are previews of longer trips to come.

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I would comment, except I don't read your blog. I will have to think about this some and get back to you (via my own blog entry, of course). Joe, November 07, 2006 10:26